Invictus

I was reminded of this poem the other day after something happened in the office. Its sad though i only remembered it AFTER things were done. So i promised myself that ill never push aside all the things i learned aside anymore. I have to trust the things i know. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as i do and shall always do. Picture by Darkspirit from devianart.

Invictus by William Ernest Hensley

Out of the darkness that covers me,

black as a pit from pole to pole,

I thank whatever gods may be,

For my unconquerable soul.

Under the fell clutch of circumstance,

I have not winced nor cried aloud,

and under the bludgeoning of chance,

my head is bloodied but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears,

Looms but the Horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of years,

Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

No matter how straight the gate,

or how charged with punishments the scroll,

I am the master of my Fate,

I am the captain of my Soul.

End

Wondering Series 1

Pernah terbaca...and ustaz ustazah pun ada cakap yang setiap benda ciptaan tuhan itu berzikir... pokok berzikir..semut ikan kucing kambing dolphin berzikir...ombak gunung matahari bulan bintang berzikir... Semua makhluk tuhan itu berzikir...

Maka, tadi tiba-tiba aku terfikir.... kayu dari pokok kan? If dah kerat kerat and di buat rumah, maka adakah kayu dari pokok itu masih berzikir? Or..dia sudah 'mati' ? sebab manusia dah tebang pokok and kerat-kerat.

Batu bata buat rumah..menara tinggi-tinggi tu... batu-batu tu masih hidup tengah berzikir or sudah mati??

Hmmph... siapa boleh tolong layan soalan kanak-kanak aku ni??

Points of View

Good morning!! =D

This picture helps me understand the definition of -ist families!

Dah ber-cendawan duduk dalam picture folder. So it's time to share with all! Got it from somewhere but tak ingat. You can stare at the picture to find the resource k? Haha

Da!!

Toilet - Love and Hate series 1

Things I hate in toilet....

1. I don’t like it when there’s no toilet slipper. Can still tolerate.
2. I don’t like it when there’s no hot/warm water. Can still tolerate.
3. I don’t like it when there’s no tissue paper at public toilets or office toilets. Can still tolerate.
4. I don’t like it when there’s no place or hook to hang clothes or towel. Can still tolerate.
5. I don’t like it when the lighting is dim. Can still tolerate.
6. I hate it when there’s lizard/frog/worms/roach in the toilet! TAK BOLEH TOLERATE! Nyamuk takpe.
7. I HATE it when the toilet is dirty! Dirty stuff! Dirty wall! Dirty floor! Dirty sink!
8. I HATE it when it stinks!
   

I LOVE it when the toilet is clean. Kecik sempit takpe. Takde bath tub pun takpe. Asalkan bersih. If colorful, lagilah suka! =D

I read somewhere tak ingat dah kat mana yang sounds like this - Salah satu cara untuk memupuk rasa merendah diri adalah dengan mencuci tandas di rumah sendiri.

And it saddens me if the people closest to me can’t keep the toilet clean.

I judge people by their toilets. Yes.

StyleCovered

Nice kan? Tudung nya macam rambut. Hehe.

Introducing you Hana-Tajima Simpson and her Maysaa. =)

Bestfriend's Engagement

My childhood friend got engaged yesterday. And i was excited like hell. The Pak Andam was 45minutes late. Aku pulak yang emo-emo walhal fazlina rilek-rilek je.. hehe.

Difficult times always lead to better days... and yesterday was one of the happiest days. =D

Congratulations Fazlina on your engagement!! May you and Iskandar last till heaven. Amin.

Owh, and welcome to the club! Hahah (Tak pedulik, nak cakap jugak!)

Pilihan

Seperti dikejut dari tidur,

dengan diketuk dengan tukul,

penuh dengan kesakitan,

ketidakpastian...

Aku melihat diri aku di hadapan semua,

semua yang aku mahu dan yang pernah aku mahu,

buat pertama kalinya,

aku sedar... aku buntu...

udara yang aku cintai disini,

bukan yang terbaik untuk aku,

tidak aku mahu cita-cita terkubur kerna diri,

kerna tidak tahu, tidak tentu...

bukan kerana malu,

bukan kerana tidak mampu,

tapi sebab hati kini masih rindu,

pada impian yang dulu,

asa, peluh, darah dan airmata,

akhirnya aku sedar tidak bermakna,

tidak aku gembira,

sebab yang aku mahu... bukan ini semua...

tiba masa aku melangkah,

bersama isteri yang aku yakin akan sentiasa menyokong aku,

sentiasa mahu aku tahu,

bahwa dia mahu apa yang aku mahu,

Selamat Tinggal udara disini,

benarkan aku pergi,

kerna aku mahu api,

aku mahu nyawa ku kembali,

aku sudah terlalu dibuai angin tidurmu,

aku pergi sebab cita-citamu bukan cita-citaku...

Selamat Tinggal Udara disini....

Speak Now

Have you ever heard of this song??
I really love the melody man... but i hate the lyrics!! Damn.
Ni kalau ade perempuan main lagu ni masa wedding aku mmg nak kene shoot lah. *Emo pulak tetiba* Hahahha =D.

But serious. The melody is awesome. Just google "Speak Now".

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends, and her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid, somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream where I stand and say

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

Fun gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play a song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me, you wish it was me
Don’t you?

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out and they said speak now

I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

And you say lets run away now
I’ll meet when I’m out of my tux at the backdoor
Baby I didn’t say my vows, so glad you were around
When they said ‘Speak now’

Dream Hair

I want this style!! Definitely will get it. Siapa nak teman pergi hair salon?
Wait. One question. Bila dah put on tudung, penyek tak? Hahaha.

InshaAllah

Sana sini terdengar-dengar kawan-kawan sebut Maher Zain. Maher Zain? Hmmph. So i googled.
Waw! Indeed. Memang tertarik terus. Nice melody. nice lyrics. nice voice. Ok. Fullstop. Tak pandai nak describe lebih-lebih. Sekian.

Nak mainkan lagu-lagu dia masa wedding boleh tak? Hehehehe.

Mr and Mrs....Oops, Not Yet... =P

Alhamdulillah, we are now officially Fiancé and Fiancée. =)
Terima Kasih Tuhan.

Dear readers...(if any) haha
Pray for us?
Tak nak jodoh sampai mati.
Nak kekal sampai Syurga. *winks*

Ok Itu saja update kali ini. Hehe. The happiness is beyond words... i am sorry i don't know what else to write for sharing.

Till then, i wish you Happiness too!!

Acne

I wonder.....if this one was sent by Hanafee, because he once said something like that too.
Hmmph. *wondering face* "Hey, ni awak send ek?" Hehe.

Anyway, whatever. But this card from postsecret makes me smile!! Boost up the confidence. Bubbly Pimply Dimply me! =P

To the girls who have pimples/acne. Come to think of this, if a guy likes you, then he likes you for YOU. =) Or maybe... erm.. your brain, or money or body?? Erk! But... ignore that for now. Let's think positive! =D

Fresh Aqua!!

Huhu.. Tak sabar nye nak ada rumah sendiri...

Draught

Its been awhile since Ive written anything. Sabrinas' been bugging me about it and i thought it would be good to write again. before that some updates:-

I watched a TV series and someone said
"Youre a writer... you must have a copy of something resembling a book somewhere..."

So i did exactly that. I have begun to write the book i have been contemplating about. The title is still in discussion but I kinda named it "I am Racists?" and hoping it wouldnt be too much to take for the Malaysian reader.

Anyway most of my writing energy is going into the book, currently writing the 4th chapter. so heres a scribble, a bit of poetry just to keep my lighter side of writing sane.

Dreaded Past

Im going too fast,

running away from a past,

hoping to escape it finally, at last.

until the moment the dye is cast,

ill remain steady, ill remain steadfast,

Im not afraid of the past,

its similar to a field, large and vast,

it was fun at first, it was a blast,

but its the past,

and its moving fast,

but im still hoping to escape it finally, at last.

The fast past wont last,

i wont let the shadow be cast,

Im looking ahead,

the tears of happiness that has yet been shed,

the steps i havent taken, the steps i havent tread.

I know i will love the moment i look up at the sky,

in the future, I hope ill fly,

and be in love... until the day i die.

Hanafee Abdul Rahman

Selamat Berpuasa!!

What a loooong hiatus!!

We've been busy.... Hanafee's busy making money while i am busy sleeping and spending the money! hahaha. Kidding. Nah.... But it's partially true. =P

Anyway, Selamat Berpuasa everyone! I know I know.. sudah Ramadhan 12, but hey, better late than never wish at all! =D

I got no idea what picture to share with you. So just enjoy the blue and yellow colors below ya! (Our engagement theme. Hehe) Got to go finish my readers' items. Da~

A touch of Yellow

Hardest

“The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one.”

via anythingbutperfect@tumblr

Anak Jahat

Dari duduk di rumah itu,

menyakiti dan disumpahi,

baik keluar aja,

jauh,

jauh,

agar tidak menyakiti,

selamat tidak disumpahi

ibu sendiri.

Benar,

jauh lebih baik.

Berhampiran,

sakit hati.

Berada di tengah-tengah baik dan jahat

dalam keluarga

itu sukar sekali

kamu akan selalu berbelah bagi

Apa ini semua ada bersangkutan

dengan dosa masa lampau?

dosa siapa?

si tua?

atau si muda?

jawapannya

dua-dua

Karma itu

berputar-putar

ke atas ke bawah

Kata-kata itu doa

dan doa itu boleh menyakitkan

Pasangan dan Warisan.

Selamat berada di pintu neraka.

I wish....

I wish to own something like these two. I wish Hanafee would buy them for me which he will. He will. I just have to be optimistic. =P I am gonna be one hot cutey wife. Cutey bubbly mommy. Wahaha! Ok. You can puke now. =P

-This is a scheduled post-

Just because...

Just because somebody flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they wanna go out with you.
Just because they wanna go out with you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.
Because people lie, things change. Lovers cheat & best friends ditch.
And there are always gonna be those people who would kill to see you fall.

-Reblogged from AnythingButPerfect-

Colours

Which colour combination is the nicest and prettiest?

1. Blue and Yellow?
2. Red and Green?
3. Fuchsia pink and Green?
4. Yellow and Green?
5. Fuchsia pink and Blue?
6. Red and Yellow?

Ahh... semua nampak cantik. Help help!!! (dramatic. heh.)

Randomness

1. I can't believe that i have no time to blog anymore.......... I miss this HanafeeSabrina. =(
2. When i am writing, I type and delete, type and delete, and then google definition, google words... just to make sure what i write is ok and the grammar is correct. But heck, it is so time consuming and i think i have no-confidence-in-writing disease. Damn. I hate the fact that i am not a good writer but I'm awesome in editing and proofreading. =P
3. I'm already involved in 6 projects and the 7th is knocking at my door. Too many business processes to install in my mind. I feel like my hand is already full but it is safe to say that everything is still under control. My own expectation is high and i don't wanna disappoint myself.
4. I don't know what to blog anymore. I wanted to blog about my engagement but it feels personal, I wanted to blog about work but it feels confidential. I wanted to blog about what i see, what i hear, what i think.... but then... why should i blog about it? Why? Why do i have to share with everyone and make it public? Why? There are things that we should just keep to ourselves. Because the moment we let it out, it might change something. And that something is very subjective.
   
5. I don't like this post. Too many "I"s.
   
6. Hmmph. It took me hours to finish this post. *sighs*
7. That's it. I filter my words.
   
8. Whatever.
9. Ok. I think i should stop now.
   
10. Bye.
    

Gone too...

Trivial updates.

Pergh.... lama gila tak blog! Too tired to blog after work. Sometimes tak tired mana pun, but i am just lazy. Dengan laptop yang kejap kejap mati, and internet at home yang sucks, slow sangat, i cannot stand it, so i don't blog.

Tomorrow is Monday and keje and patutnya sudah tidur sekarang but i am waiting for a call.

I sleep early. I think the girls yang pernah 1 room 1 dorm with me at school at college knew that i am an early sleeper. Sleeper? Haha. Funny. Whateva. I think the only thing that makes me sleep after 12 is midnight movie. Hehe.

Ops. Hanafee is calling! Hehe. Bye blog!

A short Poem

Honesty in all earnesty,
Passion in love and life,
Hardwork and modesty,
For value of life we strive.

Intelligent design and believe,
believe that hope drowns sorrow,
We shall if we need stay naive,
and hope that there's a better tomorrow.

And we shall hold these words in our heart,
from now until the end of day,
till soul and body chooses to part,
forever I promise these word will stay.


-Hanafee Abdul Rahman-

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Perdition

"And He Gripped me Tight and Raised Me From Perdition"

I woke up and watched the rotating fan on the ceiling. Like any other day, my eyes was blinded in the beginning by the ray of sunlight beaming through the open space of my curtains. Already I can hear the outside bustling world of cars and motorbikes and trains and trams. I blinked a few times. Sat up on the side of my bed, and then faced the ray of light straight in the eye. I wondered for a second, if today, I would see Him again. Like that night. The night He gripped me tight and raised me from perdition.

Perdition means hell. Perdition means eternal damnation. Forever tortured for the days spent in a way-ward manner. But there are many hells. There is the hell we've all grown up learning about. And then theres our own kind of hell. Our own brand of hell. The hell we put ourselves through due to guilt.

And I Left A Mark Burning Red On Your Right Shoulder As Images of Demons Chasing After You Shivered Your very Own Humanity.

The cold water was running down my whole body as I felt the five fingers on my right shoulder. I turned the warm water off and stood in front of the mirror. I moved my body to the side taking a long look at the hand print on my right shoulder. Red, Burning, as if to indicate how tightly He had gripped me. To raise me from the demons, to raise me from perdition.

It did to an extent.... shivered my humanity.

Earlier, I had looked at the stars. Why me? Why do I deserve to saved?

"You do not believe you deserve to be saved?"

No.... I dont think I deserve any of this....

"It is a terrible feeling... to feel like you do not deserve grace... why do you shoulder this burden? Why do you allow yourself to be crushed under the weight of the world?"

Because... I know no other way..

"You are loved my son.... If you are kept here... it is because there is task you must finish..."

--tears welled up--

What if Im not strong enough?

"Have faith my son... I did not make you weak..."

Months after that.... I walk the same path he had lain before me before perdition. Before Hell, torment and torture. Only now... I know... I am stronger. Because I have faith.. there fore.. I am stronger.

The End

Too much space is.....

Dangerous. Especially when your girlfriend is Summer.

Voices in my head

Kalau setiap kali tulis pun nak fikir apa pandangan orang bila dah baca.
Baik tak payah tulis kan?

Kalau setiap kali cakap pun nak fikir apa pandangan orang bila dah dengar.
Baik tak payah cakap kan?

Kalau setiap kali buat something nak fikir apa pandangan orang bila tengok.
Baik tak payah buat kan?

Tak payah buat semua. Simpan je dalam mimpi. Simpan je dalam otak dalam hati.

Tak boleh. Itu tak boleh. Ini tak boleh.

In your dream. IN YOUR DREAM.

Kita hidup bermasyarakat.

Unless you are living with people yang tak kisah. Then that's fine. Good for you.

Whateva~

Twenty four

Twenty seven of three i turned twenty four. =D

Thank you. Thank you so much for the wishes. =)

EAT

Eat. Makan.

Hey kawan-kawan

Makanlah sayur-sayuran

Makanlah bijiran

Ayam daging kita selalu makan

Jangan lupa ikan kerang sotong ketam dari lautan

Makanlah kawan-kawan jangan simpan

Lebih elok jika kongsi-kongsikan

Makan ramai-ramai lagi ada keberkatan

Moga-moga esok lusa kita tak kebuluruan

*smiles*

I exercise to eat more.

Oh yes, I am currently doing my very best to gain weight and so far I am now 4 kgs heavier than my last weight. Yay! My goal is to gain another 6 kgs or 10 kgs. With 10 kgs, the number will hit 5o!

Can't wait to see how i look like if i ever get to reach 50. Tembamkah aku nanti? Or still nampak kering jugak? Haih.

So my tips for those yg nak gain weight....

1. Drink Nespray Milk two glasses a day. Before going to work and before you sleep.

2. Drink Cocoa Collagen Power Plus once a day. (Optional) Ini adalah untuk mengembalikan keremajaan. Eceh eceh. Ini sebenarnya utk menjadikan kamu lagi mantap. Haha.

3. Just eat and ignore people sayings. 'Banyak'' is subjektif ye kawan-kawan. So to hell with other people's definition of "banyak"or "sikit". Yang penting adalah kekerapan makan, bukannya kepenuhan pinggan.

Itulah tips tips yang saya amalkan.

Sekian, majulah Sabrina mencapai misinya! Hehe.

Sekali sekala jiwang tak apa haha

Kau akan menjagaku

Di bangun dan tidurku
Di semua mimpi dan nyataku
Kau akan menjagaku
Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh

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