Sunday, January 14, 2018

2018!

Assalamualaikum.

2018 dah wei.. sepatutnya dah tulis dah summary 2017.. tangguh² so bila nak tulis ni? Hahaha.

Well.. okay.. let me basuh baju dulu... Then ambil Hanee from school... Then pi dobi keringkan baju... Cuaca sejuk weiii... hujan tak henti² ni. 

No am not whining or complaining. I am just voicing out. Hehe. Alhamdulillah. 

Ok. Nanti sambung semula. Bye! 

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Tips menyimpan duit hijau dan oren

In harmony, the green and orange notes. 😊

This is an encouragement post for us to develop a saving habit. Bismillah. 

Cantik kan orange and green? So harmony. My eyes would sparkle everytime i see green or orange notes! Coz i've trained the brain to hide them instead of spending them. I learnt this saving tips from the internet. Tak ingat blog financial mana yg ajar. Semoga Allah melipat gandakan pahala di atas ilmu yg penulis itu sampaikan.

The green one dah lama start so since the amount is small, tak rasa sgt when it disappear from purse. However, the orange one tu baru start few months back. Mmg perit bila da start kumpul yg orange ni. Purse akan rasa cepat kering.

We need to stay strong. If purse da kering pun... jangan sesekali korek simpanan green and orange ini. Semoga Tuhan membantu kita.

Tak takut hilang? If banjir terbakar mcm mana? Yes, it is good to evaluate the risks and all but I'd prefer to put aside all those negative thoughts and banyakkan berdoa dan sangka baik pd Allah.

Jika niat baik, Tuhan akan bantu dan menggerakkan makhluk²nya yg lain utk bantu kita juga. I believe in that.

So tanamkan dalam hati kenapa kita menyimpan in the first place. Utk mencari redha Allah dan menggunakan simpanan ke arah sesuatu yg bermanfaat utk anak, keluarga dan agama.

I have a wish to go umrah/haji dan settlekan hutang² sebanyak dan sesegera yg mungkin sebelum pejam mata selamanya.

Mohon doakan yg terbaik utk Sab and Hanee ok? 😘 What to do with all these paper notes? Being me, i would use to buy dinar 😍.

As for you, maybe it would turn to something else, it's your choice, your call.

Till then, selamat menyimpan dan semoga Allah memelihara dan melipatgandakan simpanan kamu! Amin. 😄

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Deactivate Facebook?

I no longer have a facebook account. Few weeks ago, I deactivated it. Not sure whether can delete it entirely, but nevermind, will figure it out later.

I have no facebook. And i am not ashamed to admit it. Yay! Goodbye my 9 year old FB. Hihi

Dapat soalan² dan statement² yg hampir sama aja dari rakan² dan teman²... maka, bawah ni jawapan² bagi merungkaikan semuanya.  

Kenapa deactivate FB? Apa sebab?
I am just not interested to be on Facebook anymore. I wasn't that active in FB anyway. So... ah, baik tak payah ade FB kan? 

Nak lari dari siapa?
Tak lari dari siapa². I just wanna stay... low? 

Siapa suruh delete? Ha...gaduh dgn pakwe ler tu.
Tiada siapa² suruh delete. Tiada siapa² yg mempengaruhi utk deactivate FB. Tiada pakwe, maka tiada pergaduhan. Chill. 

Ish, kan sekarang banyak info dalam FB. 
Yes, betul. But info yg sama pun boleh dapat dari sumber² lain juga anyway. 

Tiada FB... business marketing macam mana?
Business marketing masih boleh diteruskan guna cara lain. Yakin Allah bagi rezeki.  

Tidak rasa rugi ke bila takde FB?
Tidak. Rasa untung; save money dari shopping di FB?  Hihi. 

Apahal nak anti-social pulak?
Bukan anti-social. I do not depend on FB to be social. 

Macam mana nak keep in touch nanti?
I am still reachable via phone call, email, whatsapp. And jumpa depan² kan boleh? =)

Apakah perasaan selepas tiada FB?
Calm. Bebas! Alhamdulillah!

Akan activate semula tak?
Tidak pasti. Mungkin tidak. i hope i'd stay deactivated for good. 


Friday, June 30, 2017

Storyteller

I once knew a storyteller, who told stories to the people around him. Because he believed that reality can sometimes be cruel, so he wrote in verses and hymns. He spoke of beauty and of heart, he spoke of courage and of honor and of art. He steadily as the sun shone and as honestly as the rain falls, straight down bothered only by the wind that blows. Even then, with the wind, the rain was not hindered but rather danced with the wind.

I once knew a storyteller who made people laugh. People smile, tilt their head to the side and awed at his ability to tell a story with candor and finesse.

Then something happened to the very same storyteller. After some time he grew dark and he grew dim. And slowly his stories faded. And replaced by reality. When people asked what happened, he said "the world needs the truth, if we shield our children with fairy-tales and stories, they will never grow knowing what the world is actually like."

So he stopped telling stories, and talked about the worst things in life, the hands that were stained with blood in the name of God, the definition of friendship as seen by the devil, a vessel fit for two in happy times and only fitting for one in turbulent times.

So one day as the storyteller sat across a table with drink in hand in front of me, I was overwhelmed by the need and curiosity to ask him:- "What happened?"

and he said....

"I grew up..."

The storyteller was now a man.

And when he was little, he spoke of many things, true and untrue, but mostly of beauty and heart, of courage, of honor and of art. As he grew the world robbed him of his imagination. And now he has stopped telling the stories. Now he tells people what he believes to be necessary. He doesn't tell stories anymore. And do you know what you call a storyteller who doesn't tell stories?

A person who whines.

'Posted by' jadi tak betul sudahhh

Aiseyy... I was trying to update the labels for Hanafee's old posts and when i changed the labels suddenly all the posts with his signatures became my signature!

It should be "Posted by Hanafee"... now dah jadi "Posted by Sabrina" pulakkk. Apa ni blogspot?! What have you done? Kan dah tak betulll.... padahal bukan sab yg tulis pun... ish, tak suka lah bila info jadi tidak tepat ni. Boleh mengelirukan orang tau. 

Hahaha. Little things like this pun nak emo. Kikikiki. 
Takdelah.. emo few secs je, bukan emo 24hours... LOL. 

Anyway, for old posts, trust the label ok - if it says Hanafee's writings, then it is. Just ignore 'Posted By Sabrina' tu. Grrr, 

Hmm... or maybe i will just hide the "Posted by" 
Settle. Hihi

Ok da~ 



Thursday, June 29, 2017

Syawal 1438H

Assalamualaikum.

It's already the 5th day of Eid Al-Fitr. 
Hope it's still not too late to wish you Selamat Hari Raya!!

How's your raya? Seronok? Bosan? Biasa je?

Tahun ni, tahun ke-5 Sab and Hanee sambut raya without Daddy. But it's okayyy. We still have Atoks, Uncles and Brothers around~ =) 

Raya di Johor aja kita. Bila ntah dapat raya jauh. Adakah rezeki? Hanya Allah yg Maha Tahu. 
Dulu berangan nak raya Kedah.. berangan nak raya Sabah... coz of late husband's parents asalnya dari Kedah and Sabah. Tapi tinggal angan-angan aja lah. Huhu. 

It's okay, kalau Sab panjang umur, memang Sab akan bawak Hanee pergi Sabah sana. Amin! But one of late husband's uncle that's in my list to meet sudah passed away last week.. I remember him cause dia datang dari jauh to our wedding in 2011. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiuunn. =(

This year i did not buy any baju raya for myself. Kasut raya pun tiada. Bukan sebab dah beli awal atau apa. Memang tak beli pun. This year, i pakai apa yang ada and i felt happy and bersyukur. =)

However i did buy baju raya for Hanee. kat Tesco. Hahaha, kelakar rasanya. Tiada apa yang nak dimalukan anyway, still cute and cantik-cantik apa. Murah lagi. Adalah 2 pasang baju kurung cotton bunga-bunga and beberapa baju jalan.

And rupa-rupanya, itulah perasaannya... apabila emak abah tidak kisah mereka tiada baju baru, asalkan anak dapat baju baru..kasut raya baru.. =)

Hmm, teringat dulu kecik-kecik, emak abah selalu macam dapat bagi apa yang sab nak... padahal entah-entah mak abah susah payah cari duit supaya sab and adik beradik dapat apa yang kami nak.. =(

Anyway, am still not sure whether this year nak buat open house or not. We'll see lah whether got budget terlebih. Not wajib pun kan? =P . Plus, my house is always open for kawan-kawan to come visit and lepak apa... tak perlu tunggu raya to open the house. Hihi. 

Before i end this post, jomlah kita kumpul duit for ibadah Korban pula ok? Tak dapat seekor, sebahagian pun tidak apa.

Okies bai~ 

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Hanee turns Four!

Assalamualaikum!

11th April, Daddy's Orked; Hanee Hanafee turns Four!
I take a day off from work to spend time with my daughter. This year, mommy tak order cake pun. Because... Why birthday mesti ada cake? Why? Why? So no cake this year, for a change. Hahaha. Teruk punya mommy. Kiki. 

Usually for the last three years, i would order birthday cakes from aunty Shaleen. Loyal customer tau. Hihi.

Yesterday, aunty Jane bagi Hanee hadiah toys doctor². She cried coz she was expecting toys princess². Adei... Suruh cakap thank you kat aunty Jane pun dia tak nak. Bertuah punya anak. And then after hantar aunty Jane balik, we hunted for toys princess², tetiba dia nampak toys pizza², as always, dia nak beli dua²! Being a mother, of course i said no, choose one only, and we ended up buying the pizza toys.

And then bila da dlm kereta, dia siap bilang... "Doctor ada, pizza ada, princess belum". Facepalm mommy okay. "u already have princess toys last year. But u didnt play it that much. Mintak toys yg awk nak main sahaja okay" "okay...i am sorry mommy" 

Sometimes i wonder whether i pamper her? But i have tried my very best to be the best version of cool mother any kid would love to have. Hahaha. Ok gebang je lebih. 

In reality, i am garang nak mampos. Kasar tak ingat dunia. To her. And any family members wouldn't deny it. They have witnessed it, the monster-mother side of me. And i am not proud of that, i tell u. I am not. 

I feel bad. I feel like everyday i am sinning... coz of the way i treat and jaga her. With her status as anak yatim. Sudahlah memang diri byk dosa² lain.. I dont know.. i can do better. I am better than this. But the fact that Allah chose me as her mother... And she as my daughter... That means something.. something i should be thankful for. We are best for each other. I didnt pick her. She didnt pick me. We are destined for each other. AllahuAkbar. 

So on this beautiful day, this is my wish, hope n prayer for u Hanee: 

I pray u to grow up dgn sihat sempurna tubuh badan, akal fikiran. 

I pray u to be wiser and matured and independent beyond your age, coz i dont know how long am gonna be around..

I pray u to always remember Allah, ok right now maybe u dont know what Allah Tuhan God is, but sooner or later u will know. And when the time comes.. i want u to learn about Islam by heart. Be solehah by heart. 

I pray u to always be protected by Allah, guided by Allah. 

I pray u to have a big heart and forgive mommy and daddy, maktok, tok abah, uncles, aunties, everyone that have hurt u intentionally or unintentionally. Pls forgive us, sayang. 

And i want u to know that i am sorry for everything and i love u with all my heart. I hurt u, i am mad at u, all that because i dont want u to be like me. I want u to be better than me. 

Happy 4th Birthday Hanee sayang. 
4 years and counting.
We have gone this far and we are gonna keep on dancing and rocking, dear!

I love u Hanee, my baby superhero. I do. 


Hugs and kisses,
Your Mommy Wonderwoman